All About Cathy Two years 29 days and counting

All About Cathy

No one really knew that much about Cathy. No one really knew the depth  of her character or her personality. She was truly unique in so many ways. She loved with such passion that I could sense it when it glowed. The picture I took at the national zoo when Cathy put her head next to D's. There was so much warmth in that embrace, it was like staring into the sun...yet Devin was oblivious stuffing his face and looking away. It made such a cute picture.
Cathy was quiet and non-obtrusive. Her actions and motives were subtle and inconspicuous. Yet behind it was a tower of genuine love and caring unmatched by any standards. Cathy was all about feelings. She allowed emotions to rule most of her life. She had a uncanny sense of knowing a person's real or true intentions. She also sense how people felt about her contrary to their words or actions, and in many, many cases she was spot-on. It, I believe, was a gift of sensory that few possess. It was almost like having a "third eye". Oh, by the way, she could read me like a book. I could never get away with a lie. One of many of her traits I love...lol.
The most important things in Cathy's life was husband and family. Nothing else came close. Yes, she like nice things like everyone else but she would give it all up for me and family if it came to that. I don't know of anyone in my life-time that have that kind of conviction, principle, and integrity that Cathy had and oh, how I miss her to this day. I long for her presence.
I suppose the most appealing trait of Cathy's character is her child-like mannerism. She never relinquish that part of her that was four years old. What made it especially appealing is that she had full command of it and can turn it on or off at will. The core of her being was a mature, intelligent, and beautiful woman. But when it was time to play, she gave full reign to that 4 year old. God I love it when she played. Among all the other traits, she could also be goofy, spunky, teasing, and funny.
As to her personality, Cathy possess such genuine warmth and friendliness that no one would or should feel threatened by her presence or company. She was shy and reserved but sometimes it was well hidden. Because she was well read and intelligent, Cathy could converse on many different subjects and topics. She was particularly knowledgeable in politics, world and national events and could stand toe to toe with anyone on those subjects. Cathy was extremely intelligent, and her mind was well suited for analytical thinking, pragmatic extrapolation and deductive reasoning. She would have made a fine lawyer or police detective. But her soft demeanor and benevolent nature would have prevented her ever entering those careers.
Cathy had a way about her that embodied all that is truly good and wholesome. On the surface, she was just a normal, honest, loving human being. But deep inside she also had a strong sense of right and wrong, the moral fortitude to follow the right path, and the strength to continue that path even at high cost and consequences based on her integrity and high principles. There are so many "attributes" Cathy possess for which I loved her for and miss her to this day. The quality and volume of all that made up that cute angel face was why it was effortless to fall deeply and madly in love with her. I first fell in love with her thinking that my keen sense of her qualities were sufficient because there were so many. What I didn't realize then was that I only scratched the surface of the depth in which that infinite pool of all her qualities and attributes were not only amazing but genuinely unique. As I began to discover all those interesting and marvelous traits over time, I was enlightened to the full scope of this beautiful person God created. I loved her more and more every passing day and the 39 years I spent with her was pure magic. No one will ever know how much or how deep my feelings go for her. I only hope that I'm worthy to be with her when I pass.
Lastly, in her final months of life, I became aware just how brave and strong her spirit was. I always knew she had a core that was worthy by any comparison, but faced with the ultimate end, her display exceeded all bounds of expectation and conceivable limits. She faced death without fear, without anxiety, and without regrets. Her only comment to me was that she didn't want to die angry. I knew exactly what she meant, and I pray to God that I too can achieve that. I miss you Cathy, I miss you sweetie. All my love.